2020 COVID19 Quarantine Rant

So like everyone else during this quarantine, I'm going a little insane being at home. I can't help but think about my last moments as a free woman…haha, only messing. In particular, I keep recalling a certain memory that happened a few weeks ago with my brother. He made a comment that truly struck a nerve, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY, BUT IT STILL BOTHERS ME TODAY.

He said, "...if you did your make up every day you'd have a boyfriend by now, shit maybe even a husband". It's no surprise to everyone in my family that I'm single. I'm a 32-year-old woman who decided to focus more on her career rather than her love life. It doesn't mean I haven't had any boyfriends, because I have. Some were super serious, my last relationship lasted six years- and some were not. But even then, for some reason, my bro's statement made my blood boil! Especially because he said it so matter-of-factly.

I SPAT back, "The reason I don't wear make up is because as much confidence as it gives me when I’m wearing it, it takes a significant amount, if not more, away when it comes off." My brother (and the rest of my nosey family members that were listening) kinda chuckled and kinda blew me off. It was like they said, "hey that was a really good comeback, but it's not what we wanted to hear so let's move on" AHHHHH! I wanted to screaaammmm!

Why is it bothering me so much? It is because deep down I know it's true? If I actually fixed myself up everyday I'd like to believe I'd have someone special, but in all honesty that's NOT what I want them to notice first about me... I want them to want me, the real, makeup less me-- Lord, maybe I AM asking for too much. What do y'all think? Be honest. If you have a Twitter, let's chat @Dhyanuh
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